It would seem that I’ve executed another flawless social faux pas
By denying myself the right to a sudden change of scenery.
By becoming an accessory to my own murder.
By accompanying my ghosts as they carry me away.
I am a slave to my indifference.
A casualty of an endless subliminal war to which I’ve lost everything.
I have been paralyzed by my arbitrary fear of failure…
My insatiable need for intellectual superiority has left me without life or limb.
Singing a beautiful song of perpetual sorrow.
I have produce many lines…many words that accentuate my ill-fated story.
These words were never justified by a single shred of irrefutable evidence against my own treason.
I suppose my outcry may seem like a ploy for fame…
But instead I have fallen into the impermeable darkness of infamy.
Is everything irrelevant?
Maybe.
But what criteria do I have to judge coherency?
When it seems that I have lost the last bit of sanity I had managed to retain throughout my youth.
I have never claimed to be innocent,
That would be dishonesty and nothing more.
However, I do feel that my plea for subtle transition
Is not one of pretentiousness, but purely of a sincere desire for something better.
Something beautiful.
Something more than simply existing, searching for a place in which to die.