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And I’m not ready……

Posted: March 15, 2011 by jessidanielle2011 in JessiT

No matter how much I try to I’ll never be ready

That day that come on May 27, 2011

The day that will change 172 peoples lives

Lives that will have to say Goodbye

Goodbye to all the laughs, tears, and memories that we will never forget

The things we’ve shared that all vanish on that very night

The night that makes us realize how much we’ve all grown up

That everything we’ve went through was somehow all worth it

Worth it all to end in one bittersweet goodbye

Goodbye that none of us want to say

To say those last words to each other that might be our last

And I’ll tell you one thing…….

I’m not ready!!!

Out with the Old in with the New

Posted: March 15, 2011 by jessidanielle2011 in JessiT

The world has left me for a moment with only my love for pretending.

We are face to face, I’m at a lost for words.

All I can ask is why?

Why do you do this to yourself?

Are they really worth it?

You should know better, but I guess we all make MISTAKES!

Well I know you sure have.

Do you like his lies, hurt, and bull because you sure act like it.

How do you like that broken heart?

Yea, that’s your own fault.

I’m done with you being sad, it’s time for that smile everyone’s talking about to come back.

Do you even remember what it looks like because it’s been a lifetime since it’s anyone’s seen it last.?

You keep asking me why I know all these things.

Do you know why?

I’m you, but I’m not how you thought you’d turn out to be.

You’ve come to realize your tired of all the things to do with “him”,

and now your happy again.

You’ve found that smile.

You being to disappear and I no longer see you and right at that moment….

The world has slowly began to become greet me,

with only my love for pretending.

We All Have Our Scars

Posted: March 7, 2011 by jessidanielle2011 in JessiT

I know that he knew, but I wish he didn’t.

Each time a little deeper; each time a little smarter.

It started off as nothing but a relief, but you know things always turn for the worst.

With each cut it turned more into a bad habit that I couldn’t live without.

A habit slowly killing me and no one knew.

The scars that remain will always be with me even if you no longer are.

My scars will forever remain a permit part of me, like my memories with you.

Scars are like tattoos with better stories; trust me mine could write a novel.

When she was……

Posted: December 3, 2010 by jessidanielle2011 in JessiT

When she was 15 she believed getting “him” was everything.  She believed ending it all was the best solution.  She believed everyone told the truth and everyone was reliable.  She believed getting tattoos would be a great escape, besides doing the other thing.  She believed that life was pointless and so was everything else.  She believed that nothing will ever make sense and everyone’s out to get her.  She believed getting your heart-broken is the end of everything.  She believed lies that changed her life.  She believed her parents didn’t care even when she made straight A’s.  She believed a lot of things back then, but now she believes nothing……...

HELP!!!!!!

Posted: December 1, 2010 by jessidanielle2011 in JessiT

Help!

I’m going to be destroyed or hurt, but why should you care.

I’m going to be murdered to where I’ll never feel again, but why should I care.

I’m in a state of mass confusion, and I don’t know where to turn.

I’m in a place of I love yous and I’ll never hurt you.

I sit on the cloud of lies as they pour down like rain.

Voices from the past come out of nowhere screaming

“You’ll never be the same.”

So I guess that explains why I don’t even recognize myself anymore.

I lost you

Posted: November 30, 2010 by jessidanielle2011 in JessiT

I lost you yesterday, the day came and went

It was like a bad dream I wanted to wake up from,

But I couldn’t because it was so called “reality”

You are the biggest part of who I am

Now life is pointless and meaningless,  but wait

Why should I make someone everything to me,

when I’m nothing to them

Maybe it’s better I lost you to show myself I needed

to feel something different and realize no ones perfect,

and neither are you

That you should never make someone a priority when your only an option to them

Maybe it’s time I realize life isn’t as bad alone as I thought it was

Maybe life’s better without you,

and just maybe my friends have been right all along

So goodbye to you,

and when it all comes down to it

I can honestly say you was the worst mistake I ever

had a pleasure of making.

Time Somebody Told Me

Posted: October 6, 2010 by jessidanielle2011 in JessiT

Time somebody told me…..

How they loved and needed me

How they thought I was worth something more

How they thought I was good enough

Time somebody told me…..

I made a difference in their life

I helped them in some kind of way

I gave them some advice that helped them survive

That my live for them made them believe

Time somebody told me….

They loved me and I knew they meant it

They cared for me without saying a word

They saw the smile on my face and knew it wasn’t fake

And the only time I cried was if I laughed too hard

Time somebody told me….

So, I’m thinking I’ll have a little talk with myself

Just me, myself, and I; no one else

‘Cause I really think it’s about time

Somebody told me something worth smiling over and not thinking it was a lie…..