When I was young in the house I sat by the door with Jesse
waiting, everyday, on my dad to come home from work.
He smelled like a strong man and laughed as we grabbed his legs;
Mom ignored us because she was jealous.
When I was young in the house I sat by the kitchen window.
I leaned against it and watched all our cats roam around;
I tried to look at other people and places but I was too far away.
When I was young in the house I slept on my mamaw’s couch.
It was hard to fall asleep but I had to,
there was a new school to attend the next day.
Her bathroom always smelled like aged makeup, and floor cleaner.
I was then tall enough to see myself in mirror.
When I was young in the house I ran off the bus everyday in order to be safe.
I jumped on the porch, with its blue chipping paint falling off as the wind blows.
Mom and mamaw would sometimes wait to see me come in the door.
When I was young in the house I wouldn’t unpack my things.
I never knew what the next day was going to bring;
mom was there less and less.
It was hard to decide where to go until I no longer had a choice.
When I was young in the house I had to make the best of it,
If I didn’t I would cause a problem.
Sometimes it worked out that way, there was always a problem.
It was winter, and I had to move one last time;
the people are cold like the air and hard like the frozen dirt.