1999

Posted: April 15, 2016 by T_K in TaylorK

1999

My name is Taylor

I open my eyes up wide,

blinded by this bright light

The air tastes different here

 

2002

My name is Taylor

Mommy’s on the ground with sissy in her tummy

I scream, but daddy don’t listen

 

2003

My name is Taylor

There’s a knock on the door

Mommy tells mamawl to get me an run

All I see are flashing lights

What’s wrong mamawl?

She tells me “Everything’s okay baby, stay here and don’t come out”

 

2003

My name is Taylor

I never liked these plans

The smell gives me fear

It’s okay though because my baby’s coming today

Her name is Olivia

I’m her big sister

She’s so small

I’ll always protect you Livy

 

2012

My name is Taylor

As I hold her beautiful aged hand

Telling her for the last time “I love you mamawl, forever”

I end it with “I’m sorry”

Regret, guilt, depression, and loss has never filled me so much

 

2013

My name is Taylor

The earth is becoming new

A piece of me is gone forever

I can’t do this anymore

I weigh 112 now

I’ve never felt pain like this

 

2013

My name is Taylor

I don’t know where I am

Bright lights shine in my eyes

Someone asks how I’m feeling

The familiar smell of fear hits me

Why am I in the hospital?

 

2014

My name is Taylor

My hair started to grow back and

I’ve finally come to peace with myself

I can breathe again

 

2015

My name is Taylor

My life seems to be a mixture of mixed up puzzle pieces trying to fit

They finally started falling into place

I feel……….. okay now

 

2016

My name is Taylor

The room is quiet

My pen bleeds all over my paper

I think to myself should I start all over?

I want to speak from my memories, my pain

But sometimes the truth is not what everyone wants to hear

Is it?

 

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