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It’s just me, my heart, and a dream

friends have their doubts,

Family dreams otherwise

They all try to talk me out of it

But I don’t acknowledge them

I keep on believing

No doubts

No changes

No regrets

My mind is set, and my heart is pure

Just me. my heart, and a dream

I take off running

I stumble

I fall

LOVE

       bY : CARA SIMPKINS

Depression

Comes quickly, drags by.

That is pretty much the way it works out for me.

One minute you are happy and smiling.

 The next you are completely down and out.

Each moment that passes by,

Seems like you are desperate for a breath.

You cannot satisfy your hungry self.

It is all because of you O’ burdensome heartbreaker.

Woe you to have to see me this way.

So down and out.

These feelings I am having have a name.

The dreaded point in every teen’s life,

DEPRESSION

By Cara Simpkins 9.28.09

“Justin”

I tried to make you see.

But you just shut your eyes.

I gave you my whole heart.

But you just threw it back at me.

I offered you my whole world.

But you wouldn’t accept it.

I loved you like no one else could have.

But apparently it was not enough for you.

I put on happy face for you.

I offered you my happiness.

I tried to show that I loved you.

But there was no breaking through that thick wall surrounding that thing you call a heart.

So I cried.

And you didn’t seem to care.

I can only ask for one thing back.
Justin all I ask for is,

YOU

Cara Simpkins  10.6.09

Stars

I am a sparkle.

Who doesn’t shine all the time.

I rather shine when it is convenient to me.

I am happy and radiant.

Though to several they see me as sadness.

I twinkle in the darkest hour.

I disappear with the break of day.

I see things most will never see.

And marvel at things others see that I do not.

Don’t compare me to the bright blissfulness of the sun.

It is far too grand.

Don’t compare me to the bright blissfulness of the moon, that doesn’t shine so bright.

Yet both are still more marvelous than I.

I am not a cloud which drifts by and by.

I am but a star.

I have my time to shine.

And have my time to just disappear.

I may be small to the eye.

But to those who know me

I am grand.

Some think I serve no purpose.

But if they only knew what I were capable of,

They might think otherwise

Though I sometimes stop shining in the morning hours.

There will be other days.

Other days when it’s not so much my time to twinkle.

It is my time to shine!

-Cara Simpkins 10.1.09

HOME 3:50 PM

Afternoon is excitement, long awaited enthusiasm

My mom’s tender voice my dad’s blunt reassurance

The laughter of my two sisters (who care more than any)

A zero percent stress level, Soothing even to the most bitterness.

  The sound of the gravel as we pull into the driveway

The opening if that white steel door

To the happiness that would feel my heart in seconds

  Loveliness to the scent of moms clean house

I’d waited so intently to encounter.

                      -Cara Simpkins 9.17.09

Someone who was there

Now seems so far away.

Though they might be right beside me I feel like their miles away.

I believed in my heart I may have finally found love.

But that live soon turns into hate.

I told them my whole heart.

I knew the only way to describe what we had was happiness.

Then in the midnight hour,

Everything began to change.

I can no longer trust him.

He and I can no longer bear to hear each other’s names.

It breaks my heart to know that someone I once held so close.

                                                         He is now slowly slipping away. 

                                                Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever find that kind of happiness again.

I have benefitted one thing out of this heart breaking experience that I will hide in my heart forever.

                          When you think you love someone, give yourself time to know for sure,

                            If you are going to be left heart broke in the end just like I was.

                           I will probably never understand how or even why this happened,

                        But I do know one thing for sure, and that is that the love I felt for him,

                      Was so strong that I will never love anyone else the way I loved him.

                                                                                            -Cara Simpkins 9/25/2009